First Easter without Mom...

Well, Easter was the first Holiday without Momma. I dont know how I was supposed to feel so as always, I kept my feelings behind lock and key. Kelli had a hard time with it though. We decided to take Mom an Easter basket. We brought plastic eggs and everyone wrote letters to Mom and left them in her basket. We also left her a concrete angel as well. It was weird for all of us knowing that she was in the ground and we couldnt get to her. It was weird to not wake up and get ready to go to Mom's for Easter and it was weird to not have her dye eggs and do the Easter things that she loves best... BUT... all we could think of was last Easter...

Her last Easter... it wasnt good. It was filled with drama due to my brother Chris, my cousin, Aunt and of course BRIAN. Thomas (the younger brother) came over with his girlfriend. It was really windy that day and unfortunately Thomas has the nasty habit of spitting. He spit into the wind and the wind caught it and it hit my cousins car. He didnt notice, and just walked into the house. My cousin came flying into the house rasing hell about the spit hitting the car so Thomas went outside, saw it and wiped it off with a leaf and came back inside. My cousin came back into the house again crying that Thomas "scratched his car with a leaf". I just sat there like "are you for real". I kept my mouth shut cause I know me and I didnt want a bunch of drama at Mom's on Easter. But everything escalated... Chris (the other brother), my aunt and my cousin decided to jump all over Thomas. My Mom was upset and then I finally jumped in the middle of it. I started yelling that all of them were acting ridiculous and that you cant scratch and car with a damn leaf. Its Easter, KNOCK IT OFF! Then Brian decided to put his 2 cents in and jump all over Chris. He only did this to add to the drama. I jumped on Brian and Chris and told them to grow the hell up and quit trying to ruin Easter for everyone. Chris got mad and left with my neice and my Mom didnt get to see her hunt Easter eggs because they are all so ridiculous!!!!! He didnt let my Mom see my neice for 6 months after that. It was right before Halloween before Mom saw her again.

I get so angry thinking about that day. You could see the sadness in Mom's eyes that day. It bothered me so much and the look on her face still haunts me. I know it sounds terrible but I hope that the thought of Mom's last Easter haunts them...